You could say I'm slightly paranoid about some things. Most times when I go to a bar and hand over my real license which says I'm legal to drink I think they are going to say it's a fake and toss me out. Other times when I post things on peoples My Space or leave comments on friends live journals I'm worried they might not get what I'm trying to say and misconstrue it for something else. Boys I like make me pretty parinod sometimes too. Lately I've just been paranoid about not finding a job in NY and then fucking up my life and moving back to Spokane where I would end up working at Best Buy for the rest of my life and probably dieing at an early age from some weird disease that's caused by all the wild cats I try and keep in my small government subsidized apartment.

Some weeks when I look for jobs on Mandy or Entertainment Jobs (both websites) I find many jobs that interest me that I'm more than likely qualified for. Other times I find nothing or jobs that require a college degree. Now, forget my paranoia problems, but sometimes it really pisses me off when a college degree is required. Sometimes it is important to have a degree in the field you want to work in. But today while I was looking at movie jobs a college degree was required for a simple office assistant job. I can multi-task my ass off and the amount of things I can remember at one time is stupid. College didn't teach me that shit and some people can’t learn it. I can run an office and my life as well as remember all of the details of someone elses life at the same time. I didn't learn any computer skills in college and it certainly didn't give me any multi-line phone experience. The kind of skills these HR people are looking for really aren't something you learn in a class. So why is a degree required? Sure, I can't spell, but if I had graduated college do you think that would have changed? Maybe back in third grade when my spelling habits developed horribly I could have done something about them. Now my spell check and I get along well and if I look stupid for spelling idiot wrong on my My Space it's my own fault. I guess what I'm really trying to say is that I'm paranoid that not having a college degree is going to screw me out of a few jobs. But, I'm not worried about it enough to go back to school and move later in life. Who knows. I guess I really am just paranoid.

Other than that I'm really excited to move. I realized this morning that once I move to NY I'll never move back to Spokane. There really is no market in Spokane for the type of work I want to do and if I'm successful in it I will have no reason to move back. It's just a weird feeling to know you'll be leaving a place forever and the longest you'll ever be back there for is a week or so. I just keep realizing all these things about moving that I have never had to deal with before.

Onto more swashbuckling topics.

Dead Mans Chest kind of left me feeling cheap. The first time I saw it I was like man, that really wasn't as good as the first one and it really didn't feel like an Empire Strikes Back or a Two Towers. I saw it again and ended up liking it more the second time but I still don't think it was as good as the first. I did, however, love Superman Returns. I've seen it twice as well and I think it's seriously great. The thing I love most about it is his vulnerability. My favorite scene in Spiderman 2 is were he has to practically kill himself to stop the train from falling off the end of the track and his mask is off and he passes out. Everyone can see his face and it makes them realize he is like everyone else. Towards the end of Superman I felt that way too. And the first big action sequence in Superman was really sweet. I always see movies like that and think that shit would be awesome to work on. The sets would be huge and the amount of knowledge you could acquire on a movie like that would be phenomenal. Granted, a lot of the cool stuff would be post production graphics work, but shooting would still be awesome.

I think this has just turned into like a Rachel free for all on subjects that only interest me. So, I will depart with this: I want to work on the sound real of a huge action move and see what it's like. 0 comments