I'm really bad at this lately. I don't know why either. I'm working a lot less then normal and other then the occasional trip to the mall I haven't been up to much.

I think it takes people a long time to find themselves. Realistically, people always learn new things about themselves each time they experience something new and reflect on it.

I remember being so laid back in elementary school. I never worried, I had friends and I did my fair share of kicking the boys I liked in the shins. I was a tomboy. My clothes didn't often match and my hair pretty much always looked horrible. But I can remember some kids really looking like they had life down. I don't know if it was the influence of their parents or if they were just really good pretenders but even now some of the kids that acted too grown up are grown up in the stereotypical standards of society. They married young, had children young and now as a result of all these things, work full time and probably will for the rest of their lives. I was friends on and off with a few of these kids but they never did seem to have as much fun as the other kids. What they did have in abundance, compared to the other kids, was a lot of drama in their lives. Not drama at home, but artificial drama. They were the kids that took everything so seriously. I've tried that game and it made me tired and depressed. I don't know how they have done it for all these years.

I'm in no hurry. I'm not scared about not being with someone. It seems to me that right now its so unrealistic to worry about those type of things. What do you accomplish by worrying? At 12:30 at night, in my room, what am I going to be able to do about it? Absolutely nothing.

I certainly don't have it all figured out. I know I should get out more. Socialize. But frankly I'm so comfortable doing what I'm doing right now I'm in no hurry to do much else. Of course some of the best things I've ever experienced in life have started out being horribly uncomfortable. But that's the thing about trying new things; you never know until you try them. I just haven't hit the "trying them" stage yet.

Bill Withers is the top of the top.

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